Jacqui at Word Dreams suggested I write a memoir about my martial arts experience. I’m intrigued by the idea. I do enjoy writing books and recently learned there’s a Polish version of my parenting book. (There’s also a Polish translation of my first book. Good ol’ Poles!)
The problem is, it’s hard to start a book when you don’t know the ending. Will it be book-worthy? Betsy takes on the world and succeeds against all odds–Yes. Betsy does martial arts for a few years then quits because her body can’t take it any more?–Not so much.
But I worry that could be my fate.
Here’s the thing: my lower extremities hate me. Still. I wear my ankle brace constantly, and I’ve been back to sitting on the shower floor for months. The first time I decided to sit because my feet can’t take the pressure, I sort of smiled inwardly, in a sad ironic way, and thought, “Hello, shower floor, my old friend,” because I tend to think in modified song lyrics.
I’ve bought multiple shoe inserts, metatarsalgia (ball of foot pain) pads, and expensive Hoka shoes. They’re not doing much for me.
Picture interlude to lighten the mood! That Polish version I mentioned:
The foot pain started in the last few months of Taekwondo, so October or November. I remember practicing at home and thinking, “Huh, my feet hurt.” But it went away. Then it came back the next time I practiced, and left, until it came back and stayed. Years of pounding across a hardwood floor, running, kicking, jumping in bare feet has taken its toll.
The first few months of my Jiu-Jitsu return were okay for the ankle until they weren’t. When I take the brace off and lie in bed at night, I feel like someone has flipped open a Zippo lighter and is passing the flame all around my ankle, the heat seeping into the bone where it remains, smoldering for all of time.
More Polish book interlude!
A friend who did martial arts from age 40-50 and is now 62 said to me, “You’re going to feel those injuries when you get older.”
I reached out to my beloved Chatter Master, the fourth degree Taekwondo black belt who retired after back surgeries, and asked if this was her experience as well. Her response began: “This is difficult to answer. Because the truth of it is possibly going to disappoint you.”
You can guess the rest. It began with the word: Yes.
Is Present Betsy utterly screwing over Future Betsy? Is Future Betsy going to look back on Present Betsy and want to kick her arse for her selfishness but can’t because she’s just shy of being wheelchair-bound?
Chatter Master’s advice was to ease the emotional pain of leaving martial arts by replacing that love with another. The only activity that comes close to my affection for MA is writing books. And so I have this brain loop: Must succeed in MA to write the book. Can’t quit MA unless I have a good ending. Must push through the pain until I get that happy ending. Will I hate myself in the future, book or no book, if I don’t stop soon?
I as yet have no answers.
I stayed after class last night to help clean the mats and in doing so, had another opportunity to talk and laugh with Surfer Dude. I’ve made many friends there who will be hard to leave, but I am to Dorothy as Surfer Dude is to Scarecrow, in that I’ll miss him most of all.
I once asked Mrs. Instructor if it’s hard on Instructor when students he’s trained for years leave. Her answer, in a nutshell, was yes. I then mused aloud if it was hard for him when I left the first time. She responded: “I think he always knew you were coming back.”
I liked that answer. But the next time I leave, I won’t be coming back.
Unless it’s to deliver free copies of my new book.
Anyone have any pearls of wisdom to share on this? I’d appreciate your input. Also, if I left Jiu-Jitsu, what would I blog about?!?! 😛
not hard at all Betsy. Kick ass martial artist breaks her bones first and yours after and then you laugh like hell. Great title😂😘
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Hahahaha! Perhaps a bit long, but I LIKE it, Cindy. 😛
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Bones Break, Spirits DON’T
How’s that?💓🕺🏻💪🏼
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Perfect!!! 🙂
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And a play on “American Ninja Warrior”: Parent Ninja Warrior… Then you can combine some of the Parenting Is Funny, and always have a book series!
Speaking of, I don’t have a Polish keyboard, but of course I (online) translated the title of your book in Polish (HUGE congrats 🥳🥳🥳) as if it’s typed in English (so it could be way way off, as in the Oxford comma examples), but it translates to: “NICE FUN How to Face the Challenges of Parenthood with Humor.”
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You know, I remember a time years ago when my little son was being a punk and not letting me hug him, so I used my defensive JJ skills to “swim” my arms through his and get the hug anyway. Jiu-Jitsu can be affectionate too! 😛
Thanks for the translation! The second part makes sense and is a great title. I was not fond of the title my publisher chose for me. “Nice Fun” on the other hand…. Kind of erm… dumb. 😛
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See? That’s a PERFECT story for your Parenting Jujitsu Warrior book: it’s the perfect balance of parenting and jujitsu and fun!
Please remember the caveats: I don’t speak Polish, I don’t have a Polish keyboard, and each one of those little strikes and apostrophes (oh, the depths of my ignorance…) may be the equivalent of:
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LOLOL! Awwwwww, EW. I can always count on EWe to make me laugh. 🙂 When are you coming to visit me again? It was this fall, wasn’t? Or late summer? 😉
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❤ ❤ ❤ be careful with what you're offering, Ilsa… Given that you live in one of the few places that has not suffered under the heat dome, if we come visit, we may never leave 😀
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I’ll start sending you real estate listings. You’d better spiff your current home up for listing now.
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First of all, Stay or Leave is now stuck in my head but I’m not mad about it!:)
Second, I haven’t been back to my dojo since I injured my shoulder, tried to come back, and then got a concussion. I was a red belt, 2 tests away from black, and tried to convince myself that I could. But my shoulder still hurts 2+ years later, and I have a lot of pain in my lower extremities besides. My ego says push through, my body says please don’t.
I’m pondering Wing Chun because it seems easier on the joints than most other styles. But we’ll see.
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Dang, Jeff. I’m sorry that happened to you. At least you got pretty far before you felt you needed to stop. I’m still a white belt. I wish I had started this twenty years ago. Also, you’re new here! Welcome! How did you come across my blog?
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The algorithm showed me one of your posts a while ago, probably for the martial arts connection. I’ve been a faithful reader since.:)
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I love it! Thank you, Jeff! I’ll have to swing by your blog too, soon. 🙂
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P.S. You’re welcome for the DMB ear worm. 🙂
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“Hello, Shower Floor, My Old Friend” Isn’t that a Simon and Garfunkel song? Well it should be. My advice, go as far as you can and no further. Either way you go with the book, there will be an audience for it. Well, I mean, I’d buy a copy of either.
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Yep! Good ol’ S & G. And, perfect! You can be my first sale. I’ll hand you an autographed copy on our talk show. Although you should probably read it first. Well, you already know the story from here! Sounds like a plan, Andrew. Don’t forget to bring the cats.
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Do what you do and live with it, Betsy. My right ankle gives me a lot of pain at times, and I blame it on twisting the cat stance in karate class. Being in my 70s makes it seem really bad, but doing some ankle exercises helps.
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Cat stance–we did that in TKD too! For me it’s the left ankle, but I’m glad to know exercises exist to help. Maybe I should look into those now. Thanks, friend. 🙂
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I came across the exercises on the Wall Street Journal, believe it or not. They really seem to help me. Here’s the link, if you want to check it out:
A Workout That Zeroes In on Foot and Ankle Strength – WSJ
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Awesome! Thank you, TW!
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My pleasure, Betsy. 😊
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❤
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Well hello there my tkd friend. When I stopped teaching tkd the first time when Coral left for college, my knees were crying out “Enough!”! Over the years both knees got strong again and I was able to run (my passion)…then 6 years later I started teaching again when you and your girls were red/black…and now, 6 months after your black belt testing, my right knee feels like it’s on fire. Praying it heals up so I can at least power walk. Looking back, I kinda wish I didn’t go back to tkd but then again I so enjoyed it! Tough decision for sure.
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Hello, Mrs. S! Oh, gosh. I’m so sorry to hear your return for our sake caused you more pain. 😦 We were grateful to have you! Especially the time you taught. Girls night!!! 🙂 Here’s hoping, with time, we’ll both feel better.
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If I had to do it over again I’d opt to do the same! I loooooved mentoring you and the girls on to Black!! So worth it!! And, I’ve learned what I can and can’t do moving forward so it’s all a good lesson! I guess my point being for you is to follow your passion all while listening to your body and keeping future Betsy in mind!
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I’m relieved to know it was still worth it! Thank you for that! The only problem with the advice to follow my passion is its at odds with my body and future Betsy. 😦 Maybe it’s two against one? 😛
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Oh, wow… I know it would be tough to stop but if your body is begging you to leave, I’d listen. Your kids are young, but I imagine you’d like to chase after a few grandbabies at some point. Don’t borrow from your future health to satisfy the urge to triangle choke Surfer Dude today.
How about studying Tai Chi?
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“to satisfy the urge to triangle choke Surfer Dude today.” I literally LOLed at that, Janis! But that whole sentence was beautiful. Thank you.
Tai Chi? I was thinking maybe boxing next. Let’s see how my upper limbs like that. 😉
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Oh, sure… boxing. That sounds safe.
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Heehee. Just to tease you, Janis. 🙂
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Sad to say, Betsy, but our injuries worsen as we age 😦 Regarding your book, consider this: It’s not the ending that matters, it’s the journey. Allow your body to heal ❤
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Yeah. You may be right, Rosaliene, but it sure would be nice to end on a triumphant note if this is supposed to be a sort of rah-rah-older-woman-power! thing. I at the very least have to earn this next belt. I’m far too close (again) not to get it now.
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Cheers to earning your next belt!
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Thank you! 🙂
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🙂
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I have always heard that a memoir doesn’t have to be a whole story but can be about a portion. Or, perhaps about the time when you left. I’ve known people who took their blogs and turned them into books. I don’t know, I’m not all that knowledgeable about either of these two subjects. It’s way cool that the polish people like you.
On the practical side, have you considered trying a shower chair? Both my wife and my daughter with MS use one and it helps. Who would need to know?
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Probably everybody, once she blogged about it 😉
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Hilarious, Bookstooge! I was thinking the same thing. I have no qualms about sharing the embarrassing things for all the world to read. Well done figuring as much after your short time here. Heehee. 🙂
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I just hope he didn’t mind me butting into his comment. I know sometimes that is frowned upon, depending on the blogger…
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I think it’s great when commenters interact. Blogging is all about building community, right? I certainly didn’t mind. I doubt Herb did, either. He’s an upstanding guy.
Plus, you made me laugh. Definitely worth it. 🙂
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I have some things to learn and figure out too, Herb. And, yes, thank you to the Polish people! Fortunately, I can still get up from the floor easily enough, so I can hold off on the chair for now.
But when/if I get one, you’ll find out. 😉
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Maybe the theme of the book is not the physical accomplishments and the belts, but the mental victories–your strong will, the never-quit attitude you developed (I’m making stuff up)–despite the physical pains. Like the person who is injured in sports and wins in the end despite never playing again. “Life lived with a sense of humor”—that’s our Betsy!
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Oh for sure on the mental accomplishments. Another blogger Tom, who found me because of our mutual JJ-love, told me JJ is you v you. So true. Same with TKD. I considered quitting that more times than I ever mentioned on here. That will go in the book. I am grateful for your idea for this. I think it will be lots of fun. I hope I can pull it off. And that I can get that “win in the end.” Very much appreciate the encouragement, Jacqui. I’m pretty sure you’re my longest reader. Thanks for sticking with me!
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Polish version of TWO of your books! How fun is that? I am going to try to translate that cover. Please hold while I go learn Polish.
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Holding….
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If you are doing something that is hurting you, and you still do it, that’s usually called an addiction.
(I don’t know if I could give up reading though, if I found out it was making my eyesight worse. Actually, I’d start listening to audiobooks. )
But yeah, if it is hurting you long term, stop before you are forced to stop….
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I’m addicted to Jiu-Jitsu for sure, Bookstooge. Did two hours of it tonight, in fact. So far, no regrets, though. If only I could somehow get an audiobook of Jiu-Jitsu. Maybe there will be one some day … of my book. 😉
Hoping I can hold up until I get the belt, and that with time the ankle will heal again.
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Ok. I learned Polish (cough, cough, google).
Niezla zabawa jak z humorem stawic czola wyzwaniom rodzicielstwa
Means
Great fun and how to face the challenges of parenthood with humor
ALTHOUGH…Niezla zab translates as “Nice kill” Not sure how that works…slightly different book…
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Thanks for doing that leg work, VP!
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I would say to start your book , without knowing the ending, and by the time you get close to the end of your book you will know that answer. it doesn’t have to be your mastery of it, it can also be acceptance of a different ending.
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That was beautiful, Beth. Thank you. That’s a good point, too.
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There are so many angles to take here! You could go with how the Jiu-jitsu built you or improved your character, the humorous anecdotes you’ve shared on the blog (including the nicknames. Please include the nicknames!), or a metaphor of life in each submission.
Your Polish books are humorous, ja? Vhy not the Jiu-jitsu one as well?
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Will definitely include the nicknames! (I’m sure I’d get in trouble if I didn’t.) And the humor. I can’t not have humor. Thanks for your encouragement, Chel! Nice to “see” you, friend. 🙂
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That is very cool that you’ve written a book, Betsy! I say go for it. The ending often doesn’t matter and it’s the journey and process where the good stuff lie. Best wishes with it!
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I understand what your friend said that you may feel those injuries in the future but where would present day Betsy be without martial arts. Ha ha, oh the challenges we face!
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So true, Brian. I guess I find a new mountain to climb.
Though not an actual mountain. That probably wouldn’t help. 😉
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aww, I’m sorry to hear this for you. Our bodies do seem to get in the way as we get older. My thumbs no longer function as thumbs should. But, how cool about your book in Polish! (I see the word humor in that title, so it’s not such a loose translation!) Start the engine on that keyboard, Betsy!
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I’m immaturely laughing like an adolescent boy on the thumb thing, Bijoux, and I apologize. But my thought was: at least it’s not a different finger from overuse.
Okay, okay. Sorry. I’m back. I’m already writing the book in my mind, which is both good and bad. Good for obvious reasons, bad because I’ve got other projects I need to finish first!
And sorry about your thumbs, for real. That’s a unique area!
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thumb arthritis is real! That’s why old people can’t open jars. You’ll see……..🤣
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I can’t open jars now, Bijoux! 😉
I’m sorry about your thumbs, friend.
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Betsy, there’s a book called ‘Your Body Speaks Your Mind’ – and I wonder if the title here can be applicable for you. Your passion for martial arts is clear and ever leaving would be tough but equally I feel for your pain, injuries. Maybe subconsciously you are already on this path. You have so many creative interests and pursuits you will always challenge yourself in life. I do love Jacqui’s suggestion though of a memoir and this would be fascinating to read! Yeah! How cool that your book is out in Polish! 😀
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First of all, twwwwwooooo books in Polish, Annika. 😉 (Had to. 🙂 ) Secondly, you’re right. And it’s not totally subconscious. I think once I finally earn this belt that was within my grasp two years ago, I should be done, though it will be emotionally painful for sure. I guess we’ll see what happens. The book will be fun to write! Thank you for weighing in. 🙂
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When my younger friends ask me if I have regrets, or advice, I always tell them take care of injuries properly and stay flexible. My friend’s husband, lifelong runner, just had hip surgery…I had a mountain biking accident at 27. The arthritis in my lower back is because I didn’t take care of it properly
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Oh boy. That’s a good warning and life lesson. Thank you for that.
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I love the fact that you’ve got two books available in Polish…with TV coverage, no less. Cheers to all of that. How fun! And as for what you’d write if not about Jiu-Jitsu? Um…anything? Everything. I have no doubts! 😉🥰😉
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Vicki, you’re amazing. One, for being the first to correctly acknowledge two Polish books. Haha. Not like it was a quiz, but, still, you are. 😛 And second, I was JUST thinking, “No one has acknowledged my other question.” UNTIL NOW!
Yes, you’re right. I’ll surely have something to say. Life happens, and life is entertaining. I’ll make it work. 🙂 Thank you for weighing in!
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You betcha! Big hugs! 🥰
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Hugs back! 🙂 ❤
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You are a gifted writer (two books in Polish that were NOT about martial arts). I enjoy your writing even though I could not care less about martial arts. It’s your writing about the characters – not the Jiu-Jitsu – that keep us reading. Write the book. Don’t worry about the ending. It can be about how you become this super martial artist – or about how you were able to give up one love and start again on another. Just look around you at family, friends, neighbors and share the characters in your life. You will find plenty to blog about – and we will keep reading – because it’s your take on people and life that are interesting.
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Oh, Barb…. I’m almost at a loss for words. That was the sweetest comment. And, yes, I’ll start writing. The ending will come. Whatever it may be, it will be an ending. 🙂 Thank you so much. ❤
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Ah, what a dilemma. It seems you are weighing all the right components. You can’t “retire” until you have a replacement for the outlet it provides for your mind and spirit. If that’s books, then great! Love the Polish version of your books! Very cool!!
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Thanks, Wynne. I went to class this morning, and when it was over, I was like, “Already? That was so short. I want more.” Phooey. Good thing I enjoy writing, and this book, which commenters are pretty much convincing me should be a go, will be a fun challenge.
BTW, listening to an audiobook of Into Thin Air and thinking of you. 🙂
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Your reply reminds of an Albert Einstein quote, “When you are courting a nice girl an hour seems like a second. When you sit on a red-hot cinder a second seems like an hour. That’s relativity.”
Love Into Thin Air!! What a great book! XOXO!
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Einstein was funny!
Let’s see how far I get in the audio book before the library reclaims it. I’ve been listening to several non-fiction, taking turns trying to get through them before my time runs out. Then I move on to the next one until my turn comes up again for the first. Not necessarily efficient, but it keeps things interesting. I also have Sapiens, Leaders Eat Last, Why We Sleep, and several Gladwell. It’s a strange new system I’m trying out. {Shrug}
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First of all, I’m sorry both that your body isn’t being your friend right now, and that you’re having to contemplate this difficult decision. But worry not about blog fodder – I’ve loved all the non-martial-arts posts you’ve put out. You’re also welcome to join the travel blogging club if that floats your boat (side note: must travel to make it work). I’m completely shocked that you found out by happenstance about your books being translated into Polish. Don’t you have ownership? Don’t you get royalties? Your publisher needs to get on this!
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“side note: must travel to make it work” Lol! Love that. And, agree, and would love to, and that would be difficult with my children. BUT, with your high level of planning skill (all that planning sounds like a drag to me), if you sell your itinerary, I’ll buy it!
I knew about the first Polish book right away. The parenting book I didn’t know about, so I inquired. Turns out, it had been mentioned in a royalty statement, but it was so obscurely notated (as my publisher acknowledged and apologized for) that I missed it. I also usually received copies of the foreign translations (also in India and Korea), but this Polish publisher hadn’t provided any. 😦
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Oh, geez. If you hate travel planning, I withdraw my suggestion. It’s kinda crucial to the whole “travel blogger” thing. Ah well, I know you’ll come up with something awesome!
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Just tell me when and where we’re going, and I’ll simply tag along. 🙂 I wouldn’t say I hate it, but that I definitely don’t have the bandwidth for it right now.
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I know that if I was getting hurt I’d stop doing it. And that people who really loved me would continue to love me regardless of my decision. But that’s me, a natural born sloth and bon vivant. Also, there’s always something to blog about, I wouldn’t worry about that.
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You know, AB, definitely true about that last part: I will surely do stupid things that will make for good blog fodder. If things get a little sluggish in this blog space, I could always attempt to bake something. 😉
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Chex Mix. Karaoke. Press-on tattoos. There are plenty of topics to write about other than martial arts!
As a person of Polish ancestry, I would like to extend a hearty “You’re welcome” from my people.
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Thank you, Mark. Picture me doing a royal bow. I’ve been to Poland. Incredibly nice people. And, you’re right. I’ll find some new obsession to write about ad nauseam. Maybe I’ll go back to bar trivia and run the circuit at all the breweries around here. 🙂
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Maybe you could just end with a recipe? 🙂
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LOL! And then suggest activities that go well with said recipe? Hehe. A proven formula! Thanks for the laugh, CK. 😛
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You don’t need to know the ending, though. Just do it as an exploratory exercise and see where it goes. Maybe you’ll end up shelving it for a while, but then finish years later. But at least youll have a base. Just write 🙂.
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That’s a good idea, Yacoob. I am kind of eager to get started. Thanks. 🙂
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Absolutely it’s a book. No ending needed. There can always be a part two, if necessary.
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Thanks for your support, tref!
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Betsy, you are a brave lady👍👍 and I will order your book 👏 A couple months ago, I went a martial art class. I only stayed one class, sadly, because it was too intense for me. By reading your posts, I have learned a lot about martial arts. It is challenging and also amazing achievement!
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Yes! My first sale! 😉
Thank you, June. You’re very sweet. 🙂
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Hi. You’re resilient. And creative. New activities and challenges await you.
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Thanks, Neil. I’m sure I’ll keep busy. 🙂
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Wow! I can’t say it any better than the comments already have, just know, I would definitely read that book! 🌺🩷
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Good to know! Thank you, Kymber!
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So Betsy, I think the LAST thing you should worry about is what to write about if/when you move on from Jiu-Jitsu. From your non-Jiu-Jitsu topics it’s apparent something is always simmering in your brain, just waiting to be taken off the stove and plated. I agree with Chatter Master’s advice (replace one love with another) but c’mon, do we REALLY have another love on the back burner just waiting to be made the focus of our life? I love running, but if one day my feet declared, “No more, Dave”, would I suddenly fall in love with the elliptical or swimming? NO. So it’s a tough one without an obvious answer. As for your feet – continued Jiu-Jitsu or not – I hope one day soon you’ll experience the sound of silence.
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Heehee. Well done pulling that all together, Dave. 🙂 And you’re right about there always being SOMEthing I’ll find to write about. But if I’m not doing Jiu-Jitsu, I’ll probably be writing a book about doing Jiu-Jitsu (and taekwondo), so I’ll at least have a new “safe” hobby… until carpal tunnel sets in, of course. 😉
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